So when I've discovered COINCIDENTLY - by rumours oh horror!... Princess Leila was applying in ASIS-enterprises! Pushed by Bully since she was still officially his Girl Friend...! AT THIS MOST CONFUSED STAGE...
The American lady was the only person I could think of contacting could not contact PRINCESS directly, because of the tension (jealousy) rooting her relation with BULLY. Not knowing the extremely shy Pricess having many friends the American was the only COMMON friend, having been friend with me and BULLY in the past (2005-2008). After years of slow social rejection/indifference following years of real friendship, facing such an impossible introversion, I could only contact her by provocation, could hardly explain years of distress in simple words, therefore I've sent part of the content you read here!... PRINCESS, Charlie Hebdo and the BIG BOSS knowledge theft ADDING up in my mind a separately an unbearable feel of GLOBAL rejection...
IT WAS THE TIME FOR ME TO REALISE,
MY "SAINT" SUB-MISSION!!!
My SAINT attitude (provocation - detrimental to me - BECAUSE ready for sacrifice...) DEMONSTRATING the "ambivalence" of my problem - fighting typically FAKE (individualist) humanists... recalling relational context I have with the AMERICAN WITCH who triggered my Eviction... Showing offended indifference (refusal to "face/talk to me"), She just behaves/promote BULLY, who manipulates me, in secrecy. I fell out in practice with this ex-American Friend slowly during 2009~2010 ~ not long after (will you still be surprised, a date coincidences AGAIN!) to my Secret Love & related final downs with MARIE summer 2008! so as much as the BULLY (she was my alternate female "confident" at the time), she knew most of the story "quite" well...
In January 2015, I had no particular friendly trust for that American. But I knew she knew a bit Princess Leila AND her Ex (big Director in Germany, where princess works for more than 10 years) , not sure how much, at personal levels - mobbing having got me out of all this sort of gossips...! lots of haze surrounds Princess's Love life I've only always "guessed" to be honest - as confident, confidences always having been unilateral (from me to her, but I have real extra-sensitive "feelings", owing to having HOLINESS in me... good guesser of UNTOLD pains!...) - I CAN FEEL Princess Leila is prone to be abused...
Like me, and I see she risk to get trapped into the same Plot, in the hand of the same INFERNO TRIO, as ME! GIRLFRIEND OF BULLY ( from early 2012), WORKING IN FIELDS OVERLAPPING MY BIG-BOSS COLLABORATOR, Ex-BOSS OF BIMBO (in Germany, before 2007) BEFORE THE BITCH ARRIVES HERE (befriending heavily BULLY!... so note how my 2008 "secrets" gossiped to her - is ROOTING ALL MY LATER PAINS WITH HER)!
CALLED TO SAVE PRINCESS! THREE YEARS EARLIER
DENYING TIME-SCIENCE: DURATION DON'T MATTER!
FOR SAINTS, SALVATION CALLS ARE FOREVER!
SAVING MY LEILA FROM A SNAKE PIT
IT GOT HER AWARE, SHE STAYED AWAY!
FROM THIS TRIO THAT MADE MY DISMAY
BEATING THE TRIPLE "B's":
THE THREE GREATEST IDIOTS
OF MY DEADLY SCIENCE BIZ
(BIG-BOSS / BULLY & BIM-BO)
(MAY 2015)
YES CANONISED! FEAR! I FELL THE PROUDEST!
READ THAT QUASI-BIBLICAL OMNI-SCIENT TEST!
OF BELIEF! SCIENTISTS! IN OMNIPRESENT SAINTS!!!
*LOVE* SUFFERING BEING MY SOLE *GOOD* CAUSE!!
SEE THE MARTYR YOU MADE SACRIFICED* IN PAIN!
I FOUGHT MORE LOVE AT WORK UNTIL YOU LOOSE!
BLAME BUT WHAT YOU WERE SO KEEN TO PROTECT!
REPUTATION? Pff FORGET IT & ACCEPT MY RESPECT!
*DISMISSED
SEE THE HEART (IN ME) OF GOD MERCY!
"A SAINT", HEY?!?!YES! I SAVED SOMEONE! SOUNDING LIKE LEILA!
SATISFYING *HER* REQUEST - OH PRINCESS!- ONLY GOD WITNESSED,
TERRIBLY SHY - WISH EXPRESSED AT BIMBO'S HELL-OWEN PARTY - 2011...
JUST(?) WHEN BULLY "STOLE" HER HEART SO FAR FAR AWAY FROM ME...
JUST(!) TO ANNOY ME! BUT I HEARD YOU SAY... GOD NEVER FORGET!
THIS SHY-CRY-CALL HEARD TO WEAK TO REACT... "SAVE ME!!!..."
MIRRORING HOWL - MINE => (MYSTERIOUS EXIT! = LOVE MY FATE!)
MAD HOUSE! SEE (IN ME) MADMEN INSIDE-OUT: DON'T BLAME ME!
OH! LEILA... I DON'T BLAME YOU, BEHIND SMILES WE ALL HAD IT!
SILENCE KILLING.. OH! DON'T SUFFER!
I ACT (IN ME) A PLAY PERMUTING, "DEAD" "SCIENCE" & "DREAM"
YOURS PREDICTABLE! A MEAN
TRAGEDY STARING... THE SAME TRAITORS OH DEAR!
TARGETING YOU AFTER ME TO GET YOU (DREAMER!) "DOWN" HERE!!
MIRROR WHY HIDE MORE?!! SMASH IT! DAMAGED, BUT NOT DEAD!
ENRAGED, ESCAPED BEWARE OF THE SHINE OF 2 DIAMOND HEADS!
SEE ALL YOUR CRIMES AND SECRECY!
ILLUMINATED BY MY FAITH SECRETLY!
MY HELP HE ASKED, SO TO STEAL IT!
THINKING I CAN FORGET? FORGET IT!
REALITY - SUPERFICIALITY
"HIDDEN" - "FASCISM"
IN MY "CASE" - "OPPRESSION"
IN GENERAL! PROVEN
(LOVE? <=> ABUSE)
(JANUARY 2015 <=> KILLING TIME)
SAVED YOU, PRINCESS LEILA! MY BULLY'S UNAWARE GIRLFRIEND!!!