A crazy Video which demonstrates how in my Mind, the Androgynous Power Maria Farrow, my Mad ex (2006-summer 2008), had put in me, helps me make the most of my split male-female personality/psychology! And like that I am the Real Man (the only one...)! who I can illustrate with value added to the original song, how the Same Violence can spread between a loony like Maria (who I "play") and Me at Home, since Maria (a highly Sexy Lady - with no brain but a damaged one..), at the end gave me more "Love" (even if that was peanuts..), SO I AM MY OWN JUDGE! how an priori "more clever" ASIS-ENTERPRISE Girl the (science-dry Italian Ciciolina - like) BIMBO, Mr BULLY'S "acolyte", who end up Sexually Harassing me at Work unheard by all because of the "attractive" => protecting "charming" popularity of what's in fact a rattle snake!! Different place context and people: same shit at THE END! Very little Love given, "Love's Sooooo Strange...". Importantly, I had a vague flirt with her that lead nowhere but complaining about her teasing, just after, early 2009...
Everybody probably heard of my Secret Love, no one in ASIS has been intrigued enough to ask to see her...: I could not dare ask help explicitly to deal with it, except to who retrospectively, appears to be as being my 1st abuser! I got stuck long time in a vicious circle of being blamed/ashamed.
In spring 2012 BIMBO's teasing was at max level! and it took me 6 month to make clear! it was becoming more and more categoric (for me): don't look for Love at work! work for love at Home, recalling her 1st tease early 2009, the Big boss 1st betrayal, which ended up also close in time: summer 2012!, whilst Bully was continuing his relationship with Princess Leila with who, I gave up keep contact. Bully was my confident until ~2010, he knew all about Marie, including a blame for a (quite benign, really) affair involving drug possession on site... WHICH our ex-Director judged! - all the 3 "B" (and the ex-Director! I've retrospectively found after having to maybe face him again! in my Appeal against dismissal) using that as a Damocles spade Gossiping around so all knew! rather than keeping Confidentiality! ( Maria Farrow + drug affair blame ) have ROOTED AN UNINTERRUPTED PREJUDICE *WHATEVER I DO - GOOD OR BAD!*!!!
BUT LOOK!! Maria Farrow's DRESS, which I wear, and IMAGINE HER... oh my GOD-LOVE! <=> My Poesy, in my mind!.. Yes, she was very special (mentally ill, and abused, not surprisingly, I just attract it!...), and social isolation got me infatuated to her very stupidly: it was a in apparently mistake but it "framed well" into the flow of my always drifting life... Cos Hey! Stupid scientists... It is Aziz the Man With Feelings, a Humanistic Poet, talking here...
Shall I tell you a basic Life Lesson, you breach all the time?
You should not judge Love attempts for God Sake!
You praise the successful ones, and You heal the others!
You should not judge Love attempts for God Sake!
You praise the successful ones, and You heal the others!
You always learn something in love, and what Maria brought/taught me, is a sensuality/rage/ from an Underworld No Bourgeois that you all are, or pretend /tend to be in ASIS can conceive It is for me, a Memory whose echo in me, giving me, combined with my eclectic artistic interests, something Nobody has AT THE END OF THE DAY, seven years later, SO ADMIRE...!
A frankness, a strength to tell, you cannot afford because you are soooo conventional (soooo boring too!) I can and I will break all the Mirrors! Without Shame nor Scrupules! With or without you!
I believe my offenders sayings/gossips about obscure aspects of my private life, lead me to experience a more diffuse forms of disdain abuse in the whole place, all the time and this is WRONG! Say that I'm upset since I've realised the big picture, is an euphemism, I just want to kill'em, their behave is to be fucking told off! They've just, form my emotional perspective, got away with "crimes", and remain constant threats to others: they both have to change...!!
My (POETICAL-LOVE-SAINT) revenge aims at achieving that! Make people to realize the MESS Love games/misconceptions bring in a work place and stop considering me as a kid, in this area!! Thanks to the fact I'm an extremely good writer (for a scientist) yes I can do that:
I can KILL THE LOVE KILLERS, metaphorically in front of you, and show you truths nobody want to see/hear!... It demonstrates the absolutely incredible level of Love lies/lack of Understanding of Love and Life (expressed by a severe lack of humility due to the destructive and not emulating nature of a competitive environment), in ASIS-ENTERPRISES...
HEY YOU! BULLY! <= ME IAM ZIZOU! BUDY!
3 MONTH OF CLASH <= 7 YEARS AFTER MARIE
FACE YOUR MESS - AS IS!
LISTEN TO ME! THERE IS...
BUT- SILENCE & TABOOS!
HERE? -WELL - SORRY - BUT...!!!
EXCUSE MY FRENCH TOO!
"J'IRAIS DROIT AU BUT!"
(Trad: I AIM AT A GOAL DIRECT...)
WHO NEEDED
A *FUCKING*RED CARD
in the UK - HEY??
A *FUCKING*RED CARD
in the UK - HEY??
1) WHO IS THE CHAMPION?
2) CAN YOU EVER REPLY
TO MY MURKY QUESTION?
NO?!?!